Which came first, Pride or Manipulation?

 She awoke this morning and did her usual routine. 

Got her phone off the charger and headed for the kitchen to make her 

morning cup of joe.

As she turned on the phone, she had a Message from a 

friend and when she opened it, there it was.

A picture of her past. 

Past mistake of course. 

But as she read what her friend questioned, she realized that 

it really didn't bother her. 

The image that her ex had posted on social media,

 (as graphic as it was),

really had no effect on her. 

And She knew that what it really reflected was how

immature, insecure, and malicious her ex truly was. 

She learned through her study of Queen-ology 

that only King conscious men knew how to 

deal with Queens. 

But of course it wasn't long ago that she was of

a Broken Consciousness herself. 

This is how she actually did meet her ex. 

She remembered that the one thing that always 

got her trapped in toxic situation-ships was indeed her 

own Toxic Empathy. 

She wasn't always as innocent as she looked.

Truth was...

At one point in time she had stepped in front of God instead of 

walking with him and she tried  to take the

unconditional love he gifted her with and she honestly 

believed that she could change people.

Little did she know, but this was the biggest form of PRIDE!

And she learned the hard way, that Pride did indeed come 

before the fall. 

But the one thing she was finally really catching onto... 

was the manipulation. 

The secret lure that was involved in the game of PRIDE.

And this is what the ex was reflecting to her today.

 Through his immature action of posting graphic photos on 

social media, he was reflecting the very fact that

 because he had not addressed his hurts, pains, shame, and resentments,

The posting of the graphic media was indeed the manipulation tactic

to spur his pride into getting what he thinks he wants, but for the wrong 

reasons. And so...

as she sat there and meditated on why she was seeing this reflection,

She realized that a lot of times, when she wrote her blogs, 

or posted on social media herself, 

that she too was trying to change people again. 

Just as before when she was with people in relationships 

and wanted to change them.. 

This too was the same kind of PRIDE.

And so today, she decided to end it. 

To finally end her battle of changing the world. 

Changing people...

And instead, she was going to do what she really came here to do.

Accept herself as God made her. 

And Accept the people as God made them. 

She was finally going to walk with God. 

One day at a time.

And As the dust settled from the mistakes of her past,

 the road ahead began to clear. 

As did her mind, body, heart, and soul.